John Cassian and his friend Germanus had learned all they felt they could
learn from their monastery in Bethlehem, so they traveled to Egypt in
about 390 and interviewed the elderly hermit-monks who were known for
their virtue, much like, as Cassian put it, buyers of fine wares who
traveled all over the place. Later, he was asked to found an
Egyptian-style monastery in Marseille, and wrote Conferences
upon request by important people, which summarizes what he learned.
Benedict made it recommended reading for his monks, and as a result it
undergirds much of Western spirituality.
Conference One (Abba Moses): the goal of a monk is to contemplate God and
the direction to travel in pursuit of this goal is love. We cannot be free
of thoughts, but we can choose which ones we encourage.
Conference Two (Abba Moses): discernment is essential for a monk. It is a
spiritual gift given by God, and it is acquired through humility, that is,
listening to the teachings of the elders. Insisting in on your own opinion
is foolish, but also be aware that not all old people are wise. Also, too
much deprivation is just as bad as too much indulgence, with approximately
1000 calories of bread recommended per day.
Conference Three (Paphnutius): some monks choose the life after hearing
the Word preached (e.g. Anthony), some in response to the example of holy
men, and some because of circumstance (e.g. Paul, or a man who had to flee
because of a false murder accusation). Although the first two are
generally better because the person chose them, some of the most
excellence monks have been of the third kind. Monks make three
renunciations: the goods of the world; our past, vices, and passions; and
drawing the spirit from the now and visible to the future and invisible.
We use our will to respond whole-heartedly or laggardly to the
opportunities God gives.
Conference Nine (Isaac): the whole purpose of the monk is uninterrupted
prayer. This is purity of heart. There are four kinds of prayer, of
increasing maturity. The first is contrition for our sins, the second is
promises to God (we should keep these), the third is prayers for others
and the peace of the world, and the fourth is thanksgiving as a result of
contemplating the riches that God has promised in the future life. This
last is frequently done with great joy.
Conference Ten (Isaac): rather than having an anthropomorphized image of
God or even randomly selected Bible verses as meditation targets, use
“Come to my help, O God; Lord, hurry to my rescue.” (Ps 69:2) No matter
how you are feeling, you need God’s help. If you are in need, you clearly
need his help. If you are well-provided for, you need his help in not
becoming prideful or self-reliant. If you are hungry, you need his help to
stay focused on him. If you are not struggling with hunger at all, you
need his help to keep from becoming prideful. Prayer is influenced by what
you think about before you pray, so make a habit of thinking about
heavenly things, so that when you pray you will be praying heavenward.
Conference Eleven (Chaeremon): three things keep people from sin: fear of
punishment, hope of reward, and love of virtue. Fear of punishment is the
master/slave relationship, and ceases to be effective if the fear is
removed for some reason. Hope of reward is the relationship of the hired
hand. Love of virtue is the relationship of the son, and is the highest
stage. At this point we do not regress, because we love virtue (God)
itself. In this stage we are not angered by sin and we love our enemies.
Perfect love drives out fear.
Conference Fourteen (Abba Nestros): the way to perfection is getting rid
of sin and pursuing virtue. We need to do this the way we were called; it
will not work to try to follow someone else’s calling. Doing this is
essential for gaining spiritual knowledge. Now, spiritual knowledge itself
comes from four different ways of interpreting Scripture: historically
(literally), allegorically (e.g. Paul: Hagar and Sarah represent two
covenants), anagogically (the historical/visual becomes future/spiritual,
e.g. the heavenly Jerusalem is our mother [Gal 4:24-25], also prophecy
does this), tropologically (the two covenants represent two ways of
asceticism: practical and spiritual; also Jerusalem is the human soul).
Spiritual knowledge is gained experientially through contemplation, so do
not give it away to people who are not ready to or cannot receive it,
otherwise you will be guilty of throwing pearls to swine. Do not teach
about something unless you have already practiced it.
Conference Fifteen (Abba Nestros): do not seek after miracles (healing,
driving out demons), because the virtuous life is the life of love. The
Fathers say that miracles happen for three reasons: the virtue of the one
praying, for edification of the church or sinners (this requires faith on
the part of the receiver), and as tricks to get people to trust in demons.
The greater miracle is rooting out luxury, anger, gloom, etc. from ones
flesh.
Conference Eighteen (Abba Paimun): there are three kinds of monk. The
first kind are the cenobites, who live in a community with all things in
common. These are the oldest, from back when Christians started departing
from the teachings of the apostles. The second kind are the anchorites,
people who have achieved perfection as a cenobite and yearn for the
secrets of the desert (that is, the contemplative mysteries of God). The
third kind are the despicable sarabites, who live like hermit-monks but
disdain oversight and do whatever they want. They want the honor of being
a monk but to keep their own freedom. Tranquility is only possible from
humility and patience. Envy is the most serious sin, because it is caused
by the joy or righteousness of another, and so attempts to reduce by the
other person just inflame it more (unlike, for example, anger at perceived
insult, which can be mollified by acting with deference).
Conferences is very readable and quite engaging. In addition to
the main point of what the monks said (presumably filtered by the memory
of several decades) Cassian gives a bit of the flavor of what the monastic
culture was like in Egypt and what each elder was like. Sometimes the
different personalities seem to show through: one monk illustrates his
point with comparisons to ordinary life; another monk uses proof-texts,
while a highly educated monk quotes Scripture all over the place and uses
small things within the verses to make logical points. The different monks
also say conflicting things, although the general direction is similar.
The discussions are full of wisdom, since the monks have spent decades
examining their motives in pursuit of continual prayer.
While I really like Conferences, I flatly disagree with some
of the monastic assumptions. In particular, seeking to get rid of “the
passions” is Greek philosophy, from Neoplatonism via Evagrius (although
contemporaries assumed it was from Stoicism). The Bible nowhere says, for
instance, “be someone in whom anger cannot even rise up” but rather “in
your anger, do not sin”. Nor does depriving oneself of food as a continual
habit seem consistent with “receive everything with thanksgiving” or
Jesus, who seems to have enjoyed life so much that he was accused of being
a glutton. And while Paul does say to pray continually, secluding oneself
as a celibate hermit-monk seems be disregarding the commands to
cultivate/improve/care for the earth (“rule over”) and to fill the earth.
Mostly I object to the assumption that this asceticism is the only path to
righteousness. Trying to train yourself not to think about food when you
are not eating enough seems silly; feelings of hunger is not evidence of
sin, it is evidence of your body informing you that it is running low on
supplies.
Seeking continuous union with God is very worthwhile, although it is not
clear that they are seeking union per-se, but rather continuous
prayer/contemplation, which is not necessarily the same thing. And I can
see the desire to reduce distraction in prayer, as well as having a
certain detachment from the things of the world. But even lovers do not
spend all day looking into each others’ eyes; certainly long, happily
married couples do not. Likewise, rejecting the physical is not biblical,
because God made the physical, said it was good, and in us joined heaven
and earth, such that we are the image of God and God’s agents in his
creation. There is a tension in us between the physical and the spiritual,
sure, but one cannot resolve the tension by chopping off the physical, and
our future state is not spiritual-only like the angels (the ancients seem
to consider angels as spiritual only and animals as physical only; see
Genesis: only Adam got God’s breath-spirit). So trying to become that now
seems misguided at best, and certainly not normative.
However, to my surprise, I find Conferences really intriguing
despite disagreeing with the fundamental assumptions. The conversations
give summaries of many different deep insights into human nature. “The
mind must always think, and you cannot stop it, so give it heavenly things
to think about.” “Envy is the most serious sin because attempts by others
to reduce it just make it worse. And at heart it is really being angry at
God for giving someone else good things.” “Loving virtue for its own sake
is the most mature relationship to virtue/sin, rather than being virtuous
in hope of a reward, or in fear of punishment.” (All paraphrased) This is
a book with clarity of thought, deep wisdom, expressed simply. This is
definitely well-worth the read.
Review: 10
Conference One: The Goal or Objective of a Monk
- This is an instructional conversation that John and his friend
Germanus had with Abba Moses, which they had a good deal of trouble
getting him to agree to.
- Each craft has a certain goal for which everything is done. The farmer
clears his fields of brush and tills the field in pursuit of an abundant
harvest. The trader sails the seas and risks shipwreck in the pursuit of
profit. The monk fasts, reads Scripture, does vigils, and endures
nakedness in pursuit of the Kingdom of God.
- But you also need an aim/direction to measure whether you are going in
the right direction: how can the archer pursue his goal of being
rewarded for his skill by the king if he has no target to aim at. The
direction of the monk is purity of heart, or love for God, which Jesus
establishes as the prime good when he commends Mary for sitting at his
feet. The ascetic disciplines are to create this love for God, but it is
not the disciplines that are the end. So anything which distracts from
love of God is a diversion, like Martha.
- In fact, good works will pass away, because we will not need to do
them. We need to give to the poor now because of inequality, but in the
next life there will be no poor because there will be no one keeping
that which is in common for themselves.
- Contemplation of God is not limited to just the moments of awe at his
transcendence. We can also contemplate God in the many ways he acts in
the world: his knowing of our secrets, his numbering the sand and our
hairs, his power in running the world, his mercy in loving us who are
unlovable, his incarnation, his gift of eternal life merely for our
goodwill, etc.
- We cannot be free of thoughts, but we can choose which to encourage.
We have thoughts from ourselves, God, and the enemy, and must discern
between them. The mind is like a water mill: under the pressure from the
water, the wheels must turn, but it is the miller who determines which
grain gets thrown into the stones and ground into flour.
- We need to watch out for four kinds of deceptive thoughts:
- Ensure it is piety from heaven, not worldly piety like Jewish
superstition or pagan philosophy.
- Ensure it is not a false interpretation of Scripture.
- Ensure it is something that only seems virtuous but does not have
the stamp of the Fathers, and leads into sin (e.g. excessive fasting,
excessive vigils, etc.).
- Ensure it is good for all, has the fear of God, genuine in feelings,
in consonance with the apostles, rather than for human show.
- It is now late, so since a teacher of discernment must practice it
himself, we should sleep rather than being tempted to stay up too late.
You can use these papyrus mats to sleep on.
Conference Two: On Discernment
- In the morning Abba Moses continued, saying that discernment is the
most important virtue, and in light of the zeal of you two, one we need
to talk about.
- Discernment is a spiritual gift, given by God.
- Discernment can be only be acquired through humility: by obeying
(submitting to) the teaching of your elders.
- Insisting on your own evaluation is the opposite of discernment, and
results in disaster.
- You all know the hermit-monk Hero, who refused even to go to church
with the other hermit-monks because he would have to eat with them,
and thus would eat more than the strict amount he gave himself. He
started seeing an angel of light, which told him that his disciplines
had made him immune to harm. So he threw himself into a deep well at
night to prove it, and was dragged half dead by his brothers with no
little effort, and died two days later.
- A similar case was two hermit-monks traveling through the desert who
resolved to eat nothing but what God provided. Some days in to their
journey they encountered a fierce tribe known for killing just to rob.
The tribe pushed bread on them. One monk gladly accepted it, seeing
God’s provision in this normally fierce tribe; the other monk thought
that it was not God’s provision since it was from the hand of men. He
died of starvation.
- Not all elders are equally wise. Some, as you have related, tell you
off for your weakness and thus encourage hiding your thoughts. But it is
only by bringing your temptations into the open that they are cured.A
young hermit-monk came to an older, well-respected hermit-monk, asking
for help with lust. The older monk berated him and said he did not even
deserve to be a monk. He was dejected and resolved to return to the
world and marry. But an (the?) elder abbot found him, gently got him to
tell what it was that was visibly distressing him. The abbot said that
he faced that same temptation every day and encouraged him to remain.
(Then he went to the other monk’s cell, prayed that he would experience
the young man’s temptation. An ugly Ethiopian appeared and threw
javelins at the monk at hit him, causing to the monk to quickly run off.
The abbot found him and said “the devil is trying to prevent that young
man from continuing in his progress, but until now he has ignored you
because he had nothing to fear from you. One fiery dart and you run off,
completely unable to handle one temptation.” Then he prayed for the
temptation to cease, which it did, and he told the man to have
compassion and not break bruised reeds.)
- God wants us to learn from teachers; he did not even teach Paul
himself, but told him to be instructed by Ananias. Paul was specifically
chosen for the task by God, so if God did not even teach him directly,
how much more must we submit to the teaching of elders.
- To much deprivation is just as bad as too much indulgence. Fasting too
much is just as bad as gluttony; we must steer between the two excesses.
(Possibly worse, because the one who eats too much can possibly be
persuaded to be less indulgent.) One monk in Mesopotamia was outdid all
the other monks in the area. He started seeing an angel of light, which
at first told him true things to gain his confidence. Then it showed him
the apostles and prophets in a miserable condition and the Jewish people
gloriously shining, and he converted to Judaism. Another monk in this
desert would fast two days and then eat six rolls in one day so that he
could properly enjoy them; he backslid into pagan philosophy.
- Also, too much fasting and lust is a greater problem.
- I recommend two rolls of dry bread (1 lb, which is about 1000
calories) per day. More than that and you are too satisfied, less than
that and you are distracted from prayers and God. Don’t take cooked
food now and then, as this makes it harder to be contented the rest of
the days.
- Monks must practice hospitality, so save the second loaf in case a
brother comes to visit. Then you can eat something with him and enjoy
his company, without worrying about eating more than you committed to.
Conference Three: The Three Renunciations
- Paphnutius had so wanted solitude for contemplating God that he hid
out in the desert so well that even the anchorites had trouble finding
him.was priest for our group in the desert. Even at ninety he still
walked five miles to the church, and insisted on carrying his week’s
worth of water back himself.
- There are three kinds of vocation:
- Called by God, that is, responding to an urging of the HS: St.
Anthony was in church and heard a sermon that you cannot be Jesus’
discipline unless you hate your father, mother, etc. and to be
perfect, sell everything and give it to the poor; he did that and went
out into the desert.
- By choice, as a response to holy men: This is how I was called. I
was inspired by Anthony’s examples and his words.
- Compelled by necessity:
- A monk named Moses in the Calamite desert was accused of murder and
fled because he thought he would be put to death. He recognized the
necessity of changing his life.
- The first two callings seem to have better beginnings (rather than the
third, which is out of necessity rather than desire), but it is
ultimately the end that is important. Sometimes people in the third
calling have better ends, for example, the monk Moses, and St. Paul,
both of whom embraced their calling. [Paphnutius includes Paul in the
third category rather than the first, because “[s]uddenly blinded, it
was as if he had been dragged unwillingly along the route to
salvation”.] A good start can come to a poorer end because of
carelessness.
- The fathers and the Scriptures talk about three renunciations:
- The body: “[w]e come to despise all riches and all goods of the
world.”
- “[W]e repel our past, our vices, the passions governing spirit and
flesh.”
- “[W]e draw our spirit away from the here and the visible and we do
so in order solely to contemplate the things of the future.”
- (Gen 12:1 “Come away from your native land and from your family and
from the house of your father.” Your “native land” is “the riches
of the world and the goods of the earth”. “Your family” is “one’s past
way of life, character, and faults, which cling to us from birth” sort
of a close relationship. “The house of your father” is “all worldly
memory arising before our eyes”.) [He also cites other Scriptures, as
well as the three books of Solomon: Proverbs counsels despising the
things of the world, Ecclesiastes says everything is vanity, Song of
Songs contemplates heaven and union with God.]
- The first renunciation is not much good without the second, but
achieving those two prepares us for the third. Paul talks about the
uselessness of good works if we do not have love [the second
renunciation, of the heart]; we cannot just have the appearance of
renunciation, we must actually do it. It is our deeds that make our soul
either shine or look ugly.
- There are three kinds of riches:
- Evil: the ones where the rich go hungry and thirsty (Ps 33:11)
and/or the rich have already experience their reward (Luke 6:24).
Clearly it is wise to throw away these riches.
- Good: the ones that mark virtue, like justice (Ps 111:2-3), or the
ones from Rev 3:16-18.
- Neutral: the ones that can be either good or bad, depending on how
you use them. That is, worldly wealth, see 1 Tim 6:17-19.
- The first renunciation is giving up visible riches (which are not
ours, anyway), and the second renunciation is driving out sin. The third
is giving up all the invisible riches, which is required to get to the
fourth stage, the reward for perfect renunciation (“come into the land I
will show you”).
- It is not possible to get their on our own, but “inspired by the
Lord’s call, we hasten on to the road of salvation and, with Him to
guide and enlighten us, we are led along and come to the perfection of
utter bliss.”
- So how is our will involved? Well, God gives us the opportunity,
but our will is in responding eagerly or “laggardly”. Indeed, without
the Lord to support us, “the weakness of [our] free will may cause [us]
to lose balance, and if [we] fall [we] may perish forever.” Thus holy
men always sought their direction from the Lord, for example, David
seeking to know God’s Law.
- (“It must be admitted that everything happens either by [God’s] will
or with His permission. The good is achieved with God’s will and help;
the opposite happens with His permission when as a punishment for our
misdeeds and for the hardness of our hearts He abandons us to the
devil’s mastery or to the ignoble passions of our bodies.” See Rom 1:26
and 1:28, and Ps 80:12-13.)
- We had thought that the achieving the first renunciation was the
height of monastic life, although we had heard a little about the second
in some communities. But we had no idea about that the third even
existed.
Conference Nine: On Prayer
- Hermit-monk Isaac summarized by saying “[t]he whole purpose of the
monk and indeed the perfection of his heart amount to this—total and
uninterrupted dedication to prayer.” Physical work and heart work are to
achieve this. They are required for calm prayer and also cannot last
without this calm prayer.
- Pure and fervent prayer demands that all worldly interests be
uprooted. I am embarrassed to say that I sometimes laugh at the memory
of some clownish word or deed earlier in the day, which completely
distracts me from prayer. Even more so must we get rid of lust, avarice,
even memory of worldly affairs.
- The soul is like a down feather, which floats easily when dry, but
putting water on it drags it to earth. “Therefore if we wish our
prayers to reach upward to the heavens and beyond we must ensure our
mind is cleared of every earthly defect and cleaned of all passion’s
grip and is so light of itself that its prayer, free of sin’s weighty
load, will rise upward to God.”
- Luke 21:34 says that we should rid ourselves of drunkenness,
intoxication, and earthly worries which weigh our hearts down. These
are easy to avoid, but there are more serious versions (implied by,
for example, Is 29:9, being drunk but not on physical wine): being
intoxicated by passions.
- We have found that the intoxication of passions is due to demons.
One hermit-monk obsessively expanding his living quarters, and
another hermit-monk saw him, and beside him an ugly Ethiopian
driving him to the work, and urging him on when he grew restful. The
monk doing the work saw nothing, although he did use “we” when
explaining himself.
- Rejecting things of the world that we cannot control is easy; it
is the things within our control that distract us.
- It is when the soul is free of carnal urges and is moving towards
the Good God that we are rooted in peacefulness and can pray
continually.
- Aside from “purity of intent and soul” and illumination of the Holy
Spirit, there are not really different kinds of prayer, but rather
different contexts in which prayer occurs: joy when life is going well,
gloom of heart, seeking a virtue or a gift, removal of a vice, fear of
damnation, anticipation of heaven, all result in different prayers that
look different.
- However, Paul distinguishes four kinds of prayer, in 1 Tim 2:1:
- Supplication: asking for pardon as a result of contrition.
- Prayers: promising/vowing something to God, notably changes in
behavior. It is written that we should keep our vows.
- Pleas: when we are moved in spirit and pray for others, or for peace
in the world.
- Thanksgivings: when we thank God for past kindnesses or future
kindnesses revealed that he will do (e.g. salvation). These are some
of the richest prayers, as we see what he has promised and are moved
to boundless joy and pray out of that.
- Contrition produces supplication; prayer results from fulfilled vows,
pleading comes from love, and thanksgiving from contemplating God’s
goodness. The first is appropriate for beginners, since they are still
familiar with the stings of sin. The second is for those making progress
with virtue. The third is for those living as they have promised. “The
fourth suits those who have pulled the thorn of penitence out of their
hearts and who in quiet spirit contemplate the kindness and mercy that
the Lord has shown them in the past, that He gives them now and that he
makes ready for them in the future. Aflame with this their hearts are
rapt in the burning prayer which human words can neither grasp nor
utter.”
- Even in the first stage prayer can be burning and impassioned, as we
are aware of our sin and have fear of punishment. It is necessary to
progress from one step to the next, and this can only happen through
desire for virtue or killing a vice.
- The Lord’s prayer:
- “A state of soul more exalted [that these four] and more elevated
will follow upon these types of prayer. It will be shaped by the
contemplation of God alone and by the fire of love, and the mind,
melted and cast down into this love, speaks freely and respectfully to
God, as though to one’s own father.” This is “Our Father”.
- “who are in heaven”: our existence here is an exile and delay
keeping us from rushing there.
- Since we desire to be sons, we burn with desire to cry out “hallowed
be your name” for our father’s glory. (Paul is here when he says is
willing to be condemned that his people be saved, also Micah says
something similar in Micah 2:11.)
- Purity of soul desires the coming of the Kingdom, hence “thy kingdom
come”. There is also the promise of “come share in the blessing of the
kingdom” but also the fear of judgment.
- “Thy will be done on earth as it is in heaven”: a natural prayer,
and is a desire that men become like angels, doing the will of God. It
is only possible to pray this if you believe that God arranges
everything, good and bad, for our benefit. Also it can be interpreted
as praying for salvation for everyone, since God desires that all be
saved (1 Tim 2:4).
- “Give us this day our daily, supersubstantial bread”. Mark (6:11)
says “supersubstantial”, meaning that it has supernatural virtue, and
Luke (11:3) says daily, meaning that we must eat it every day for
yesterdays bread will not support today’s virtue.
- “Forgive us our debts, as we forgive those in debt to us.” This is
great mercy when we forgive those in debt to us. But if we do not
forgive, then we are asking to be treated accordingly, that is, for
God to not forgive us! Some are afraid and skip saying this, but that
isn’t fooling God, who has out of fairness told us in advance what the
measuring stick will be.
- “Lead us not into temptation”: this is a bit of a challenge, because
without testing, we cannot be approved. This is solved by defining
temptation as when we agree with the suggestion and do it, that is
yielding to the tempter.
- “Deliver us from evil”, asking that there be a way out from every
temptation (1 Cor 10:13)
- Note what there is not: requests for riches, bravery, honor, health,
and other cheap, perishable things.
- There are many opportunities to be inflamed in prayer: a verse while
singing the psalms, hearing the voice of a brother, someone else singing
the psalms, the wisdom of an elder, have all brought me to intense
prayer.
- However, there is no point trying to weep when the soul is dry.
Useful weeping comes from contrition, or from contemplating what God
will give us in eternity, or from fear of hell, or for the sins of
others (Samuel weeping over Saul)
- How can we have assurance that our prayer is heard? There are many
reasons that prayer is heard: two or more agree; you have at least as
much faith as mustard seed’s worth; persistence (Luke 11:8); your alms
will pray for you on your day of need [appears to be a non-biblical
quote]; changed living (Isa 58:6-9), too heavy sorrows (Ps 119:1, Ex
22:21,27). But if we don’t believe we will be heard, we will not be
heard at all (from James). It took Daniel 21 days to get his answer, so
be persistent, otherwise the angel won’t be able to get through if you
give up too early.
- We do not always know what to pray for, so we should end with “not
as I wish, but as you wish”.
- The gospel tells is to go in our room and shut the door when we pray
in secret. We “go in our room” when we shut out the noise our thoughts
and worries. We pray with “the door shut” when we pray silently, and we
pray “in secret” when we pray within our hearts, so that the demons do
no know. Praying in silence not only fulfills the command of “Mi 7:5"
but does not disturb our brothers and prevents the demons from hearing
us.
- Our prayers should be short so that the enemy will not tempt us with
distraction.
Conference Ten: On Prayer
- While we were in the Egyptian desert, a circular came from the bishop
of Alexandria condemning the Anthropomorphite heresy that since we were
“made in the image of God” that God looks like a man. This caused a lot
of consternation, because many of the hermit-monks believed this. One of
them was an old monk named Serapion, an uneducated man and
well-respected for his disciplines. Paphnutius received a visiting
well-educated deacon Phontius, who persuaded Serapion that all the
churches were united in this and that clearly an infinite God could not
have a limited form. Serapion was persuaded, to all our great joy, that
one such as he should not perish out of doctrinal ignorance. But when he
went to pray, have started wailing, “they have taken my God, and now I
don’t know who to adore”.
- We were greatly disturbed and asked Isaac why this had happened, and
how he could have been in such grave danger to his soul. He said that it
was a leftover pagan idea not a demonic trick to get him to lose his
salvation; this simple man just had not been properly educated. But,
also, it is only the purest hearts that see Jesus in his divinity; less
pure hearts see him in his humanity. When he was on earth, the people in
the towns and cities (and the monastic villages), but it was Peter,
James, and John, who had climbed the mountain of virtue that saw his
divinity. “Being Himself the inviolable source of holiness, He did not
have to rely on withdrawal from the world in order to acquire it nor did
he need the benefit of the solitary way of life.” But he withdrew to the
mountain to give us an example that “if we should have the wish to pray
to God with a pure, clean heart, then we, likewise, must withdraw from
all the worry and turbulence of the crowd.” When reproduce the image of
eternal life, then we will have the perfect love of God, and will be
joined with him in love as Jesus prayed in John 17:22-23. “This [unity],
then, is the goal of the monk. All his striving must be for this so that
he may deserve to possess in this life an image of future happiness and
may have the beginnings of a foretaste in this body of that life and
glory of heaven.”
- We asked him, we have meditated on what you said before, and we see
that every child progresses through the stage of learning the alphabet,
reproducing the symbols, pronouncing things, and only after that
learning rhetoric. So we would like you to give us a formula for how we
can consistently hold onto thinking about God and not have that keep
slipping away from us.
- Your ability to formulate such a precise question shows that you are
close to attaining it, because it is difficult to find a solution to a
problem until you are able to formulate it, and this shows that you
have thought a lot about this. In fact, you are probably at the point
which God would have shown it to you without my help.
- “Every monk who wants to think continuously about God should get
accustomed to meditating endlessly on it and to banishing all other
thoughts for its sake. But he will not hold on to it unless he breaks
completely free from all bodily concerns and cares.”
- So here is what was given to us by the earliest Fathers, and which
we pass on only to the few people are eagerly want it: “To keep the
thought of God always in your mind you must cling totally to this
formula for piety: ‘Come to my help, O God; Lord, hurry to my rescue.’
(Ps 69:2)”
- When you are attacked by demons, pray this. When you are doing well,
pray this, because you do not want to become proud. When you long for
tasty food, pray this, because you are seeking food of which the
desert has no knowledge. When it is time to eat but I cannot stand my
[dry] bread, pray this. When I am too sleepy, pray this. When I am not
sleepy at all but it is time to sleep, pray this. When lust has gone
dead, pray this, so that you may keep that virtue. When I rage, or are
gloomy, pray this. When I have achieved humility, pray this. Etc.
- What poverty is more destitute than relying on another (that is,
God) for everything, as this prayer leads us to do? In fact, we are
like the hedgehogs in the mountain rocks (Ps 103:18, Prov 30:26) A
Christian and a monk cannot avenge wrongs, and even cannot even allow
the slightest emotion to stir, what is weaker than that?
- This prayer also requires no image to focus on, which after all is
idolatry.
- How can we use this to keep away the follies of earthly thoughts and
focus on spiritual things?
- The mind is always wandering from Psalm to Gospel, from verse to
verse, not focusing on the verse of the psalm that we are singing.
What I have said earlier should be sufficient, but basically there are
three things that keep the mind in place and not wandering: vigils,
meditation and prayer. “Constant attention to them ... will give
stability to the soul.” However, it cannot be for ambition but rather
as a requirement of the monastic life.
- If you think prayer happens when you bend your knees, you will not
pray much. At prayer, the mind will keep thinking about whatever it
was thinking about, so we need to prepare our mind beforehand. If we
want to pray heavenwards, we need to be thinking about heavenly things
before prayer.
- We had thought that he had given us an easy formula, but it was
actually harder to do than just randomly finding meditation targets from
Scripture. However, it is something that anyone can do, regardless of
how educated they are.
Conference Eleven: On Perfection
- When Germanus and I left the Syrian monastery to seek out instruction
from the Egyptian fathers, we happened to arrive in Thennesus at the
same time as Archebius. He had been a solitary before he was unwillingly
made bishop, and kept the discipline, although he lamented that in 37
years of being a solitary he did not achieve the virtue he should have.
He was in town for the election of a bishop, and afterwards we returned
with him to his town and he introduced us to his former
fellow-solitaries, beginning with Chaeremon, who was both older and
closer in location than the other two. He was over 100 years old, and
the disciplines had bent him over so that he looked almost like he was
crawling when he walked. But his austerity had lost none of its rigor.
He complained that he was unworthy to teach us, since age had forced him
to relax his austerity, but we persuaded him that his mere example was
already instructive.
- He said that there are three things that keep people from sin: fear of
hell or earthly laws (Prov 8:13), hope and desire of heaven (Ps 33:23),
and love of good and virtue (1 Cor 13:8,13, 1 Pet 4:8).
- This is a progression: they go towards the same end but are not of the
same quality.
- Fear of punishment is the attitude of a servant (Luke 12:47), and is
the beginning of the path of virtue. However, if that is all there is,
if the fear goes away, the desire not to sin goes away too.
- Hope of reward is the attitude of the hired hand (Luke 15:17-19)
- Love of virtue is the attitude of a son, who shares in everything
(John 16:15, 1 Cor 3:22). Loving the good and virtuous itself is the
highest level, because no one having arrived here will wish to leave
the good and virtuous, because there is nothing more precious to the
person. There is no fear in love. In this stage the person is a sort
of image of God.
- In this stage the sins of others do not anger us; rather we
remember how we used to be and we pray for them. It was not by our
own effort we learned to love good and virtue, rather it was God who
set us free (Ps 115:16-17, Ps 93:17)
- When we have this lowliness of mind we will be able to love our
enemies.
- You know you are still bound to sin if you cannot have
“sympathizing pity” for those who still sin.
- What you said is very powerful, but how can you say fear and hope are
imperfect when Ps 33:10 says that nothing is lacking those who fear God,
Ps 118:112 says that the author obeys out of hope of everlasting reward,
and both the blessed Moses and David looked forward to a reward?
- The stars are of different brightnesses, and “there is a great
distance between those who will obtain mercy and who will deserve to
enjoy the most glorious vision of God. I am not saying there is no
value in fear of punishment and in hope of reward. In fact, Scripture
praises both, but fear of the Lord is the beginning of
wisdom. Jesus himself summons the Disciples to be friends instead of
servants. “Perfect love casts out fear” and “He who is fearful is not
perfected in love, because fear anticipates punishment” (1 John 4:18);
thus love of God is a higher perfection than the fearful servant or
hopeful hired hand.
Conference Fourteen: On Spiritual Knowledge
- We had memorized some scriptures and wanted to know what they meant,
so we asked abba Nestros. He started off by saying that there are two
parts to contemplation: the practical (that is, getting rid of sin) and
the contemplative. The practical can be achieved without the
contemplative, but one cannot reach the contemplative stage without the
practical, because the spirit of God does not live in someone subdued by
sin (Wisdom 1:4-5).
- Perfection (the practical side) has two stages: getting rid of sin and
“discern[ing] the order of the virtues and to have our spirit shaped by
their perfection”.
- We have to work twice as hard to get rid of sin as to achieve virtue
(Jer 1:10 has a list of which four things are tearing things up and
two are planting). We must uproot the passions and plant the virtues.
- The practical mode has many subdivisions and professions: there are
those pursuing the secrets of the desert (Elijah, Anthony), but also
those leading monastic communities (as opposed to hermit-monks like
Elijah and Anthony), and those who run hostels to give hospitality
(Macarius ran a hostel in Alexandria and was in no way inferior in
virtue to hermit-monks), teachers, serving the poor, taking care of
the sick, etc.
- We need to do our profession; it is unwise to try to do someone
else’s profession. Abba John met a civilian who drove out a demon;
the man seemed of ordinary virtue, quite insufficient for the demon
to respect him, but it became clear after the man admitted that he
had been pressured into marrying twelve years prior, but had
continued to be chaste. Abba John said that he could not do that
now, in old age, let alone when he was young.
- The contemplative side is the spiritual understanding of Scripture, of
which there are three ways (plus a fourth, non-spiritual way).
- Historical (the non-spiritual way): this is understanding what the
text said happened. Ex: Abraham had two sons, one the normal way
with the slave Hagar and one through a promise, with his wife Sarah.
- Doctrine falls here. Ex: 1 Cor 15:3-5 (Christ died for our sins in
accordance with the scriptures, was raised on the third day and was
seen by Peter.)
- Allegorical: the historical events prefigure a mystery. Ex: the two
women represent two covenants; the Law (Hagar) comes from Mt. Sinai,
which corresponds to Jerusalem, and bears slave children. (Gal
4:24-25)
- Anagogue: “climbs from spiritual mysteries to the higher and more
august secrets of heaven” and “by means of which words are moved the
plane of the invisible and future” Ex: the Jerusalem above is free and
is our mother (Gal 4:26).
- Prophecy does this. Ex: 1 Thess 4:12-15 (when Jesus comes the dead
will rise at a trumpet and then we who are alive will follow in the
air)
- Tropology: the way to live life and instruction in asceticism. Ex:
the two covenants are the practical discipline and the spiritual
wisdom; or Jerusalem represents the human soul.
- If you want to see the light of spiritual knowledge, yearn for a pure
heart (for those of a pure heart shall see God). Keep your eagerness to
read and add to it practical (moral) knowledge [from disciplined
living].
- John, since you are young, listen to your elders and only speak to
ask a question, otherwise you might end up trying to show off your
knowledge and be guilty of pride.
- Do not teach that which you do not live out. Not only will the words
of such a person be ineffective, but you fall afoul of being like the
Pharisees (Matt 23:3-4) and teaching people to break the commands (Matt
5:19). “It is something else [than skilled talking] to enter into the
very heart and core of heavenly utterances, to contemplate with the
heart’s purest gaze the deep and hidden mysteries”; this can only happen
through the Holy Spirit. Be humble.
- Memorize Scripture. It will help us avoid error, and our minds will
think on it and find hidden mysteries when we sleep.
- Here is an example of how Scripture becomes richer through this
process. The Law says not to fornicate. There is the obvious meaning.
But there are spiritual fornications, too: idolatry, augury, etc. were
described as fornication by the prophets; superstitions about the Law
(Gal 4:10, 2 Cor 11, etc.); heresies (Acts 20:29-30) [neither the
conference nor the biblical text reference fornication in this context];
and the most subtle kind: straying thoughts.
- At this I groaned and said that this makes me quite discouraged,
because I can’t stop thinking about the pagan poetry that I read and
loved as kid, and it interrupts my praying and confessing. Nestros said
that this is easily cured: the mind must always be thinking (it cannot
be empty), so you have to give it the proper things to think about. So
read Scripture with the same zeal you read poetry, and your mind, being
filled with these things, will not be filled with unprofitable, earthly
thoughts. Even listen attentively when someone is saying/reading
something you already know, because saving truth is always worth
listening to. Eventually, over the course of time, it matures and
becomes good wine pouring out of you.
- The only way to gain spiritual knowledge is by Hos 10:12: “sow
integrity for yourselves, reap a harvest of the hope of life, light up
within you the light of knowledge.” Ps 118:1-2 agrees, saying first
blessed are those who in their journey walk perfectly in the Law of the
Lord and only secondly, blessed are those who pay heed to His witness. A
jar with remnants of foul-smelling stuff does not become good smelling
because something fragrant has been put into it; instead it pollutes the
good fragrance. Likewise Proverbs talks about the pure of heart and
wisdom.
- Be careful about teaching the spiritual knowledge you have gained,
though, because it is experiential knowledge gained through hard work.
Do not, for the sake of vainglory, give it to people who are unclean
with sin. “Do not throw your pearls to swine”, etc. Instead, follow Prov
31:6-7 and give the strong drink of spiritual knowledge to those with
deep sadness over their former lives since “wine gladdens our hearts”
(Ps 103:5) In fact, giving spiritual knowledge to the “lukewarm and
careless” will result in punishment, because it is giving out the
master’s money for interest.
- “Clearly, there are two reasons why spiritual lore does not work.
Either the teacher has no experience of what he is talking about, so
that all his effort to instruct the listener is simply the empty sound
of words, or else the listener is loaded down with sin and his hardened
heart is closed to the saving and holy teaching of a spiritual man.”
- But since God desires all people to be saved (1 Tim 2:4), sometimes
God “allows someone who has not earned the right to preach the gospel
by a blameless mode of life to receive, nevertheless, the grace of
spiritual knowledge for the salvation of the multitude”.
Conference Fifteen: The Gifts of God
- Abba Nestros paused for dinner. Afterwards we sat on our mats silently
and respectfully until abba Nestros resumed, “our discussion has now
brought us to the topic of the nature of spiritual gifts [in particular,
healing and driving out demons]. The tradition of the fathers says that
these take three forms:
- The merit of holiness causes gifts of healing. Miracles can be
worked by “specially chosen and just men” (Matt 10:8) [presumably
healing is also a miracle, but maybe holiness is only sufficient for
healing and other miracles require being chosen?]
- For edification of the church, or even via sinners, but faith is
required by those receiving (Matt 7:22-23, Mark 6:5-6).
- Tricks by demons used to snare people into trusting someone who is
unholy. (Demons also cry out the name of someone unholy when they
leave a person, to trick people into trusting that that person is holy
enough to cause them to flee.)
- So it is important to evaluate whether the person doing the miracles
is actually living a life of virtue or simply pretending.
- The virtuous life is the life of love (1 Cor 12). In fact, the highest
level is love, not working miracles.
- Abba Macarius, first to dwell in the desert of Scete, was asked by
many Catholics to combat the Eunomian heresy which was polluting the
faith. So he came, and the teacher used his rhetorical skill to trap
him “on the horns of Aristotle”, but abba Macarius said that “The
kingdom of God does not lie in talk but virtuous activity” (1 Cor
4:20) Let’s go find the graveyard, and speak the name of Lord over the
first corpse we find. The teacher agreed to come “tomorrow”, but left
the province. The next day crowds assembled, and after waiting most of
the day, Macarius led the crowds up to the tombs above the river (due
to the Nile floods, buried bodies would not stay buried unless on high
ground, where it is very dry). He found a very old corpse, and asked
it to tell the crowds that if the heretic actually had come, whether
it would have risen before the crowds. The corpse said that it would
have, and abba Macarius told it to sleep until Christ raised all of
“his class”. The conclusion is that it was only the need of the Church
that drew this power out, otherwise it would have remained hidden.
- Abba Abraham the Innocent went out to do some farming around
Pentecost, and a woman came to him holding a half-dead baby because
she had no milk. He made the sign of the cross over a glass of water
and after she had drunk it, her breasts filled up. In another town he
was mocked because of his faith and the crowd said “heal this crippled
man to show your God is real”. He called on the name of Christ and
pulled on the man’s foot and the man was completely healed.
- This was not selfish power, and these people tended to have to say
the same thing the apostles did “why do you look at us as if our power
and our piety have healed this man?” (Acts 3:12) [it seems like that
verse undermines his argument that piety is the precondition for
miracles].
- Jesus said “don’t rejoice that you do miracles, rejoice that your
names are written in the book of Life”. He said to imitate his
humility. And humility is available for everyone, whereas not everyone
does miracles.
- Actually, the greater miracle is “to root out the tinder of luxury
from one’s flesh”, restraining one’s anger, disperse “ravening gloom”
from one’s soul, and “healing the weaknesses of one’s soul” rather than
casting out demons.
- The blessed Paphnutius had spent many years battling demons (even as
they came openly) and believed himself free of cupidity. One day he
burned himself in the fire while making a pot of lentils for some
guests. He was saddened because if the earthly fire burned him, how much
more the fires of the Judgement. He fell asleep and an angel of the Lord
said “why are you saddened that this earthly flame is not at peace with
you? You still have the urgings of the flesh, and until they are cleared
out the fire will continue to burn you. Find a beautiful, young, naked
woman, and take hold of her, and if your heart is still untroubled, then
the flame will not harm you.” He did not do the suggestion, and realized
that although he defeated demons with the sign of the Cross, it was
greater virtue to extinguish cupidity in one’s own flesh.
- While abba Nestros talked he escorted us six miles to the cell of the
old man Joseph.
Conference Eighteen: The Three Kinds of Monk
- Having learned from the three monks, we set off for the remoter areas
where there were more holy men, and we came to abba Paimun near a
village at one of the mouths of the Nile. We were kind of like “zealous
purchasers of goods”. Abba Paimun was known for his perfection and
miracles, but since relating those would be empty (not to mention
voluminous) and would not advance my purpose of relating things that can
develop perfection, I will get straight to what he said, which when he
found out that we had come from a Syrian monastery was:
- There are three kinds of monks:
- Cenobitic (living in community): The cenobitic communities come from
the original church in Acts 2:42, when Christians held everything in
common. Over time, and once the apostles died, the fervor also died
and people began to be so lax that even private ownership was
considered following God. The cenobitic communities formed to be true
to the original Christian values in the midst of the laxity around
them. They followed the rules as they remembered the apostles having
given, but over time they were “cut off from the mass of believers”
[due to the mismatch of values] because they avoided marriage and the
world, they were called monks. They earn money for the monastery, but
humbly hand it over, and in so doing continually live out their
initial renunciation.
- Anchorities (solitary hermit-monks): After achieving perfection in
the cenobitic communities, some people are seized with the desire for
secrets of solitude. They want to join in open battle against the
flesh and the demons, and to pursue the contemplative life. These are
people like Elijah, Paul, and Anthony. They are described [not
particularly literally] in Job 39:5-8, Ps 100:2-6, Lam 3:27-28, Ps
101:7-8.
- Sarabites: these deplorables simply want the honor from the
appearance of being monks, but they do not submit to the teachings of
the elders, nor do they do the disciplines required to move towards
perfection. They live in their cells and do whatever they like, but
still want the honor of being monks. Sadly, these are the predominate
type of monk, except in Egypt.
- There is a fourth kind developing: lukewarm anchorites, who start of
with an initial zeal, but disdain to be ruled by elders and go off by
themselves and never get rid of their sins. Out by themselves with no
one to challenge them, their faults grow worse and become a deadly
poison.
- Abba Serapion, having endured a young monk who gave a show of being to
sinful to pray, etc., took advantage of the custom of discussion after
the meal to tell him that, being young, he should not rely on the
generosity of others but be productive, in the example of Paul. And
seeing the sadness and anger in the man, he continued that up until now
you gave a show of being serene, but what is really necessary is true
lowliness of heart: humility and patience.
- Germanus asked how we could achieve this tranquility, since it seems
like the only way to preserve gentleness and peacefulness is to live far
away by yourself.
- He said that patience and humility are only possible when the inner
heart is humble. When something upsets us, it reveals that we have not
achieved complete humility. But note that humility that is never tested
is worthless; victory only comes from being in battle. The difference
between a holy man and a sinner is not lack of temptation, but that the
holy man is not overcome by the temptation, while the sinner is easily
overcome.
- There was a woman in Alexandria who lived religiously in the house her
parents had left her. She went to bishop Athanasius (of blessed memory)
and asked if there was a widow that she could help. So she was sent the
most righteous widow by the whoever it was that made the decision, so
that she would not lose heart. A little while later she came back to the
bishop and asked if there was a widow that she could help. Athanasius
inquired and found out that she had been sent the best widow, so he had
the worst widow sent to her, one that was quarrelsome, boozy, irritable,
and garrulous (and these were not in short supply). She was kind and
attentive, and received back invective, violent words, and even violent
actions. So she persisted and became even more humble, and learned to
overcome the widow’s constant insults by “humane gentleness”, and
softened the other woman. She thanked Athanasius, saying that it was
really productive for her, and that she had really been strengthened in
patience like an athlete.
- Abba Paphnutius lived such a holy life even as a young man that the
elders gave him a position among them. One of the monks became jealous,
and he hid a book in Paphnutius’ reeds that he wove for a living, then
claimed to have been robbed after church service. This was unheard of,
and everyone’s cells were searched, with the book found in Paphnutius’
cell. He did not argue, since he knew that if he did it would reveal
someone’s sin (since he knew he was innocent), but he asked for penance,
and for two weeks prostrated himself outside the church door as a
penitent on Saturday and Sunday instead of receiving communion. After
two weeks the monk confessed what he had done, but was so beset by a
demon that he could not receive and peace. Not even Saint Isidore, the
leader of the community and known for driving out demons, had any
success. It was only after he went to Paphnutius that it left and he was
restored.
- Note “the unshakable calm and constancy” of Paphnutius. We are beset
by minor trials compared to his.
- Also, note that we cannot be confident in our peace and trust in the
face of temptation if the only guardian of it is the closed door of
our cell. And solitude certainly did not protect the monk from
jealousy. So we cannot look for peace outside ourselves, but rather by
developing humility within.
- Envy [including jealousy it seems] is the most serious of all sins. It
was envy that destroyed the devil (Wisdom 2:24-25) “Death came into the
world because of the devil’s envy. So let his own kind go on to imitate
him.” Someone grieving a loss can be satisfied by a gift; someone upset
by injury can be satisfied by deference, etc. But envy is angered by the
other person’s prosperity or goodness/virtue, so the more you give them,
the angrier they get.
- In fact, envy is really being angry at God for giving the other
person good things. This is certainly the “root of bitterness” of Heb
12:15.